A Reunion To Remember - Ch5

The reunion was in full swing when Julian made his way towards Logan. People were dancing – and by the looks of it someone had finally spiked the punch. The twins and their wives swooped in on Logan; asking him to dance. Julian just stood and watched as the blonde got up and made his way to the door after gracefully refusing the twins' request. The brunette felt his heart drop, 'Not again' he said to himself barely above a whisper, and took off after the blonde.

As he reached the door, memories of a night long past flooded back, each one bringing insight and clarity back to the actor, and then his stomach clenched as one memory came to the foreground of his mind. He always thought it was a dream but it was hitting him like a tonne of bricks as the memory was now as clear as day. A hand subconsciously made its way to his lips, touching them lightly, his thoughts racing. He had actually had the courage all those years ago – even if it was liquid courage – to tell him how he felt and kiss the lips he always dreamed of. His dreams had actually come true and he didn't realise it. He tore his mind from his thoughts and focused his eyes on Logan. The actor took a deep breath then stepped into the foyer, and made his presence known to the blonde leaning against the door.

"Running away again?"

Logan's voice had a hint of laughter as he replied, "No, you?"

Julian sighed, "Not this time."

Logan's eyes rose to meet his own, full of curiosity.

"Oh really? The famous Julian Larson isn't going to run away for once. It reminds me of a memory I can't forget."

Julian winced at the reference. He was drunk then but that shouldn't make a difference to his courage now.

"Well that was a long time ago," Julian said, longing entering his voice, "but apparently I haven't changed."

"I'd disagree."

Julian looked at Logan strangely, but urged him to go on.

"You may be more famous now but it doesn't change the fact that you're more scared of getting hurt and that you're just as ignorant as I used to be."

Logan's words had put Julian on the back foot, he was trying to open up but he was slowly building up his walls again.

"Well maybe you're right, maybe I am but it's because I can't forget the hurt I felt all those years. It tears me apart and I don't think I can go through that again."

Julian's barriers were now just as high as they were in the bathroom; all that Bailey said lay forgotten in the back of his mind.

"Do you trust me?"

The question threw Julian off, he was not expecting that.

"I do."

Logan's scoff reminded Julian of the old prefect.

"If you trusted me you wouldn't be so defensive and you'd stop thinking about yourself for one minute. I bet if you took a look back at our interactions tonight you would realise that I haven't discouraged you once, but I've stood there and listened to everything you've had to say and actually taken thought to it. Maybe you should try that before you speak next time, maybe then you'll realise that I care for you," the blonde looked away for a second but look straight back into the actor's eyes, green eyes penetrating brown, "and dammit Julian, I think I love you."

Julian's world stopped. Had he really just said that? Julian quickly refocused on what the blonde was saying.

"But maybe that was just an illusion, maybe all those years you shut me out drove me crazy and I'm no longer thinking straight." Logan took a deep breath to calm himself then continued, "I don't know anymore but when you figure out what's going on in that head of yours, call me."

And with that Logan turned to leave, but quickly turned back, pulled a pen out from his pocket, grabbed Julian's hand and scribbled down a number.

"You might need the new one," he simply stated before he disappeared out the door.

Julian's head was reeling. He couldn't believe what had just happened. He stood there staring at Logan's number written on his hand. The writing was cursive and a little messy but it was just the same as Julian remembered it. He stared at the way Logan had written his name on his hand and added a little heart at the end.

'What does that mean?'

Julian just kept staring at it, going through everything the blonde had said.

Dammit Julian, I think I love you.

Those words were racing through his mind, punctuated more every time it repeated itself in his head.

"What do I do know?"

"You go after him."

Julian was not expecting that. He turned around to see Kurt pushing himself off the wall he was leaning against, moving towards Julian. Kurt put a hand on Julian's shoulder then smiled knowingly as he looked down and the writing on the actor's hand.

"Ring him."

"Thanks for the push Kurt, but I don't think you know what you're doing here." His voice was solemn, his mind still contemplating what he should do.

Kurt simply replied, "Neither do you. I saw you two just then and you clearly haven't realised it but you don't know him as well as you used to. You lost contact with him after school and so did I, but I still remember what he was like with me. This is completely different, he has changed Julian. He's not going to chase after you. He gave you his number to see whether you think he's worth the effort of finding again, and I think you owe him that much."

Julian shrugged Kurt's hand off his shoulder and walked out of the building looking for fresh air. He fumbled with his phone in his pocket, toying with the idea of calling him. After a few minutes he finally pulled it out and punched in the number but quickly hit the end call button. He looked down at his phone, trying to build up the courage to call again. As he finally dials it again he hears a phone ringing in the distance. He moved closer to the sound, phone now resting at his side as he kept walking towards the noise. Suddenly it stopped ringing and he heard a voice. He quickly put the phone up to his ear and just listened to the voice.

"Jules? … Julian is that you? … Julian stop being a prick and talk to me."

Julian could see him now, sitting on the front steps of Stewart. He hung up the phone and kept walking towards his old dorm house, keeping his presence unknown from the blonde.

"Julian you absolute prick. Next time you call you better say something." Logan said disgruntled, hanging his head in his hands.

"Maybe I will, maybe I won't."

Logan jerked his head up to look at the actor and quickly stood to be eye to eye with him.

"What happened to not saying anything discouraging Lo?" a smirk rising on Julian's face.

"We already knew you were a prick, nothing new for you."

"Well maybe I could stop it if that's what you want."

"We both know you never could, and it's what made us, us. You were the prima donna prick and I was the psychotic bastard. I may not be that person anymore Jules but I still want us to have that bond we did back then, just minus the hurt feelings."

Julian smiled fondly at the man in front of him, realising he just had to let go of the past and embrace the present.

"I want that too, but I also want more."

The blonde crooked an eyebrow, urging him on.

"I want to be able to think about someone other than myself. I want to be someone special who you can treasure. I want to be able to make you feel like you are wanted and loved unlink in high school. I want to be the one you wake up next to."

Julian looked away, his emotions getting the better of him. As he looked back at Logan he saw a large smirk play along his lips as he started to speak. "That's a lot of 'I want'" he paused, "but I think I can live with that for now," the smirk now turned into a maniacal grin, "as long as you're willing to beg that is."

Julian's face dropped into an incredulous smirk as he bowed down in front of the blonde.

"Of course, you're Majesty. Whatever you wish is my command."

Logan just smiled down at him.

"Well my first command is: get up you look ridiculous."

He extended a hand down to the actor and helped him up with such force that he toppled back on to the stairs, Julian falling on top of him. They both cracked up laughing at their situation but as the laughing died down they started surveying their situation. Julian quickly went to jump as he realise he was sitting in the blonde's lap with his hands pressed flat against his chest, but Logan pulled him back down, their chest pressed up against one another. Julian closed his eyes and took a deep breath, hoping that when he opened his eyes he would still be there in Logan's arms. When he opened them, all he could see was a sea of green staring back at him, much closer than it was before.

"Logan," Julian said breathlessly, trying to regain himself from being lost in the blonde's eyes. Logan kept his focus trained on the man on top of him, repeating the actor's sentiments as he said his name back to him, "Julian."

Julian snaked his hand up Logan's arm to rest at the back of his neck, fingers playing lightly with the strands of hair that brushed the back of his hand. Logan moved his hand to sit on the back of Julian's waist, keeping him in place.

"This finally feels right," Julian whispers into Logan's ear. The blonde just grunts lightly in recognition as he nudges his nose lightly against the actor's. A smile splits over Julian's features as he gets the hint and brushes his lips lightly over the blonde's before placing a small chaste kiss on those lips, still a little afraid of what might happen. Soon all fears are put out of his mind as his lips are taken in a more passionate kiss, his mouth parting slightly to give entrance. Logan's tongue slips quickly inside his mouth, searching for what it's been longing to find. As the two fight for control their hands become entangled in each other's hair. Julian slowly pulled away, his nose brushing against Logan's before he opened his eyes to look at the blonde.

"Wow," Logan uttered breathlessly looking back at Julian. He just smiled as he stared into those eyes, wanting to get lost forever, "I think I could get used to this."